[F.U.C.K. is an e-zine that I started on January 24, 1993 and ended on January 24, 2000. One concept is that articles should be timeless if possible, so they were not released with dates. As such, the date on this blog is not exact but I will try to use a date as close as possible.]
BEFORE you erase this after reading the title sit back for a sec. This isn’t another file about good vs. evil in general. This is more specific and much more enlightening(cough). We all know the difference between the two so no stupid definitions or anything like that.
Also. This is really hard to write about I think, course I haven’t written about it so I don’t really know. Anyway, lots of chaotic thoughts swirling around in my head and that is one of the reasons I am putting this down on “paper”. Just bear with me like usual, think about ramblings, and THEN delete the file. Or mail it to a few senators and representatives. And when I say good and evil it means lifestyle OR attitude. Think about it and you can probably figure what I am getting at. These files are always pretty simple I think.
Ok. Right now I lead a “good” life. I repay debts, I obey a lot of stupid laws, I am willing to give to a lot of people, am willing to take a lot of shit from a lot of people, somewhat caring about some things, etc. Overall I am good natured. My best friend and I always borrow money from each other but he is a stubborn ass about it sometime and won’t let me repay him which usually gets me feeling sorta bad knowing I still owe him something. That shows he is a good person as well really. Anyway, we both are giving to each other and basically to other people. Him much more than I. When you look at it from a larger point of view you start to see how much you are actually gaining and losing.
Gains: I keep a really good friend. This friend could/would help me out if I was in a bad spot. He is always there if I really need a few bucks, or other favor. Whether the favor is big or small he is there for me and I always have that “safety blanket” to fall back on. And no matter how cheesy it sounds you do sort of get a good feeling from doing good things that benefit others without personal gain. Or if you are good natured toward a stranger you can often times end up meeting a cool person, nice girl, etc. and gain a new friend out of it. I get tired of the what if scenarios but a little one for you. -What if you help some old guy help change a flat on the side of the road. Turns out he is wealthy and repays you quite well for you willing to help him.- I know that is far fetched these days because of a lack of good people. Everyone is out for themselves it seems and no one gives a shit about the other person.
Losses: In the long run you lose a good deal of money if you are generous in that way. I know I don’t lose a lot with my friend because he will usually/always pay me back in one way or another. So money isn’t a thing for us but if you are willing to give a guy a quarter here, a dime here, and so forth it adds up. No matter how small you think it is. Heard the song by Arrested Development? Called Mr. Wendal and it is a good song. The first part of the song gets me to thinking. The song goes like this: “Here have a dollar, in fact naw brotherman here have two. Two dollars is a snack for me, but it means a big deal to you….Now that I know ’em to give him money isn’t charity, he gives me some knowledge I buy him some food…“
I think it would be pretty cool if you could give a bum a few bucks in exchange for some wisdom. You know that living years on the street will teach a person a lot of things and passing them on is a good thing. I say it all the time but Knowledge is Power. That is all there is to it. Anyway, just a few bucks of monetary loss seems like little but you never know. Other losses, time. If you help out people with small stuff and help them do this or help them do that it eventually adds up and takes a good chunk of time out of your days(depending how good and helpful you are).
So those are a few gains and losses. I am not saying run out and be good this second because that is not in everyone’s nature. I know that pretty damn well these days. But look at the possible advantages and weigh it against the losses. Seems quite the good deal to me.
Next, if you lead an “evil” life or have an “evil” attitude. Ok. Not so much evil but more like you don’t give a shit about yourself. I mean evil or looking out for yourself or whatever you want to call it. So you don’t lend money to people, no matter how much, you don’t waste your valuable time helping other lowly peons with anything, especially if it is something obviously caused by their own stupidity. You don’t care who you offend, what you say to them, what they think of you, or what might happen because of your actions.
When you do share it is only with those few individuals you “trust”, for lack of a better word. What you do share is minimal and usually only if you know you might get repaid in the near future. You don’t tell them much about yourself, only enough to satisfy curiosity. You see a quick way to profit then you take it, whether it hurts another, is illegal, or immoral. “Trust” in your book isn’t really trust. It is more of a “I know I won’t get backstabbed by you” rather than “I have faith in you”. You don’t take shit
from anyone no matter who it is. You have to have the last word.
Gains: You don’t answer to anyone. You don’t lose time or money. You have very few friends and even fewer people that you can really trust. That can be good or bad of course. Hmm. Not much more than that.
Losses: Possible friendship that can save your ass in many occasions. That “security blanket” to have under you in case you need something small or important. A social life. While you hang out with the few people you know and/or like you miss out on a lot of other social aspects.
Remember that all the above gains and losses, these are not always the truth and not all may happen at the same time. I guess I lean toward a slightly evil side (muhahaha) or at least my friends tell me that.
I don’t know what all this means to you and no doubt you realized a lot of that but probably didn’t think about it much. Whether a person acts good or evil really does make a difference in your daily life. Whether it is some guy willing to help you with something or some other guy that doesn’t care that your car got a flat because of the nail under your tire that he saw and could have told you about.
Cheesy or not. Think about being good a LITTLE more. I am getting tired of all the evils that you run across out there that just don’t give a shit. Think about it and peace.